fill me up

i've been listening to the shins a lot lately and their music just fills me to bursting. i don't know why, they are sort of the dark horse. i never put much thought into their music, but i liked it, and usually thats a bad sign. usually it means its too fluffy or too catchy or something, without substance, but GOD i love this cd... wincing the night away. it swells with emotion, and i feel like doing something creative, or jumping up and down for a while, or turning up as loud as i can at work and lying back and letting it absorb. i feel almost drunk when it comes up in that first song, sleeping lessons, its like floating in the middle of the ocean with no boat, but completely safe.

i got a fucking awesome loungefly skull camo bag today. i ordered it a while ago and forgot about it, but it came in and i love it! i thought it would be a gym bag, but now that i'll have my laptop, it might be too small to carry inside. its sort of in between purse and gym bag sized (for me, at least, i am a huge bag whore). i love it though. its one of those things i might have stopped myself from buying before because of the skulls, but i am totally into it now. i don't really understand why a skull would be that offensive. we all have one.

i also ordered a book that came in today... something i normally would not buy, but i think it is good for me. i am very optimistic lately... not hopeful really, just optimistic. come what may, i'm ready for it.

oooh michael... somehow you always get me.

I’ve been lost inside my head,
Echoes fall off me.
I took the prize last night for complicatedness
For saying things I didn’t mean and don’t believe.

Believe in me, believe in nothing
Corner me and make me something
I’ve become the hollow man,
Have I become the hollow man I see?

Mmmmmm I see…This echoing.

You have placed your trust in me.
I went upside-down.
I emptied out the room in thirty seconds flat,
I can’t believe you held your ground.

Believe in me, believe in nothing
Corner me and make me something
I’ve become the hollow man,
Have I become the hollow man I see?

I’m overwhelmed, I’m on repeat,
I’m emptied out, I’m incomplete.
You trusted me, I want to show you
I don’t want to be the hollow man.

Believe in me, believe in nothing
Corner me and make me something
I’ve become the hollow man,
Have I become the hollow man I see?
I see…